Has been a rough season for me dealing with youth... it's hard to change their mindsets because they don't share the same views. They tend to be more passive, emotional and take criticism personal.

Abandoned blog...

Just got back from melaka on friday evening, I will just briefly write about the church camp. To me, I went without any agenda or expectation. I don't know what to expect and i felt that i can't really expect from God.

To be frank, I went with a undeserved son's mindset... just like the prodigal son... when he returned to his father, the only thing he asked for was the leftover and work as a servant... instead of giving him the leftover, the father was so gracious to clothed him, gave him a food to eat and put a ring on his finger.

During one of the devotion, we'll complaining about our jobs and stuffs...something in common among the working adult haha.. it's quite funny!! They were teasing me on the $50!! Oh Mine!!

life hasn't being a bed of roses with all the things going on in my life... i long for his embrace and hide in his arms...

Successful people have a strong purpose, strong enough to make them form the habit of doing things they don't like to do in order to accomplish the purpose they want to accomplish. - Got this from Junjie's blog.

i'm no longer tt person tt have a strong purpose..

Candice ever told me that maturity is doing things that you don't want to do. I totally agree with her on this..

today i need to go paya lebar to meet up with tshirt making vendor to discuss on the scout tshirt we're printing.. dont feel like going... but i still need to go.

i've grow very restless, fats are accumulating, growing fatter nowaday.

Things to do:

starts back the exercise routine 3 times a week, swim & gym
work hard @ work, study SOP, study the interlocks, the process values and trip values, rem the parameters.
prepare my successor to take over for scout.

Life hasn't being at his best neither the worse, nothing much to look forward nowaday. Pretty busy with scout's stuffs lately, too many things to plan, monitor & execute, attending meeting after meeting. So tired, have being short fused lately too..

At least I'm doing something i like to do and happy to be part of, ppl don't really see the importance of scouting till they experience themselves, just like christianity, give you an analogy; i give u an apple, by the look of that apple doesn't tell you whether this is a gd/bad apple on the inside or whether it's sweet or sour.

Over the years, Scouting doesn't look as appearing compared to other UGs, although scouting is a gd product. I feel that the students & parents are extremely protective & pampered their kids way too much.

No matter how many peoples misunderstood me, it doesn't matter... cause i know you're always there when i needed you the most... nobody knows me better than you..

help me to understand why my heart are hurting so badly... streams of tear flow..

you comfort me in times of despairs, scrutinize my every single steps.

No ones hurt you the most other than your loved ones..

I'm unhappy at work & home... i can't find peace with myself.. but i can't go to you yet only you know what's going on...

human failed but you won't...

Others might wronged me for what I'm doing but it's doesn't matter... I'm not justified by them

i know the feeling of being useless, hopeless and helpless... I don't wish to see them walking in my footsteps...

i think it has been a norm that people always looks at other people's flaws and being critical about it..

i'm flawed person and yet i am an apple in God's eyes... after being hanging/running away for so long it's time to go back and claim back my belonging..

devil came to kill, steal and destroy... kill the joy, steal the purposes and destroy the future...